I knew more
than I know now

No…wait…
I still know as many
but I think of none

I have embraced this familiar ailment
unconsciously even though I remember
how it was before

Without it I was fun and
appealing and wanted in
the midst of all activity and
flamboyant and present always in
the minds of my friends and
full of vigour and life and
desires that I shared and was privy to and
open and honest but
never myself